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Today

Dear Me,

Today, I promise to take control over my life.
To take control over my decisions and accept responsibility for the consequences.
The only way to be happy is to be free.
Free to say what I want, feel what I feel.
I'm never suppressing my emotions anymore.
You either take it, or leave it.

I will take it slow, but I will also work hard to achieve the best at my youngest age.
I will not back away when people talk down on me. Even when my voice
is trembling, I will still speak up.
I will be brave enough to fight the fears that have been long since stuck
in my system. One by one, I will fill the gaps with beautiful things to look
forward to.

I will be the strength of those who need it most, but I will also not be weak.
I will give only a part of myself and not everything, until there's nothing left.

Most of all, I promise to be myself.
To be unashamed and unabashed with the way my mind works,
To how my body looks like,
To the way I dress and the way I laugh out loud,
To the way I space off sometimes and forget the rest of the world.

I will cope with my demons the way I know. I will take it slow and start
asking for help, even when my pride won't let me.

I will be unashamed and brave from now on.
I will do things my way and at the same time, bend with the world.
I will stop worrying about the future and start working on improving my
present.
I will love harder even if the love is not returned the way I want it to be.
I will try harder even when all the odds tell me to just give up.

I will kiss and fall in love and climb mountains and be a writer, someday.
Someday is not just a word. It is a place that I will go to and I'm beginning
today.


Dawn 27/07/2015

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