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Holding a Heart







I must really love you if I can publicly post this. :D



When I come to think about it, we have been kind of courting each other for almost 4 years now. Although we haven't seen each other in 2 years, I've never felt this strongly about you before. I'm sure you feel this way too, as you have a way of describing things before I even feel them, myself.



I have always been afraid that you are going to stop midway and leave me to look for an easier kind of love. You snapped at me a day ago, and although you barely remember it, the words are still ringing in my head. Who can blame you, when even I, believe you're off better with someone else?



And suddenly, I came to the realization that it wasn't me you were angry at but yourself. Like the way I was angry at myself for not being brave enough to hold on to you. I literally went against the world for you, but it came down to family, responsibilities, and having to escape. I think you were angry for not fighting hard enough for me, or taking time so lightly, even when I told you long back that I was leaving.



I'm sorry for leaving.



I want to see you.



Love,

Dawn

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