Lost in reverie

I must really love you if I can publicly post this. :D When I come to think about it, we have been kind of courting each other for almost 4 years now. Although we haven't seen each other in 2 years, I've never felt this strongly about you before. I'm sure you feel this way too, as you have a way of describing things before I even feel them, myself. I have always been afraid that you are going to stop midway and leave me to look for an easier kind of love. You snapped at me a day ago, and although you barely remember it, the words are still ringing in my head. Who can blame you, when even I, believe you're off better with someone else? And suddenly, I came to the realization that it wasn't me you were angry at but yourself. Like the way I was angry at myself for not being brave enough to hold on to you. I literally went against the world for you, but it came down to family, responsibilities, and having to escape. I think you were angry for not fighting hard ...

Alchemy And now I understand why the world threw all these setbacks at me, It was- always has been- a preparation for the day when I met you. This was so I could love you better, and for you to see me as I am.

Last night, I was thinking about one of my favorite places in the Philippines, UP Los Baños. I was imagining what it was like to dream back then. I wanted to be a forester and during the year I stopped schooling, I went there to pretend that I was actually a BS Forestry student. I remember how silly it was for me to ask how much the boarding lodges were and how I planned taking my bicycle there to hop from one building to another for the next class. It was making me rethink my life and what it could have been if I didn't go to STI. Of course, I would never have met him. Maybe, just maybe, there was a very small chance that I could catch a glimpse of him on their graduation day in Umali Hall back in May 2012. However, that only exists in a parallel universe. I always wonder why it's so difficult for me to capture happiness. It feels as if my whole life had rained down sadness on me. My spirit is adventurous, but my soul was always bound to the responsibilities of the...

Distance makes the heart grow fonder (and impatient.) The time will come for us, When night and day collides.

The sound of your name on my lips tastes sweet, like honey--dangerous and raw I wonder if mine ever crosses your mind? My heart longs for you to say it out loud.

"It is useless to be unhappy about things we can't change, as much as it is useless to be unhappy about things that we can"  - "Adulterio" by Paulo Coelho Most people are so in love with their sadness. Pain is inevitable in life, but it's how we handle it that matters. Every single day is a struggle to find happiness, because it is often a miracle. The little things in life, - the shaft of sunlight in the morning, the bus ride to work, the free afternoon Chai, the purring of a cat, a simple text from the one you love-- are what we wake up for. Our daydreams and unconscious desires, in order to make them come true, we have to wake up and try to search for happiness each day that is given to us. If we want happiness, then we should change the way we think about life.

The place where heaven and earth meets was where we left off, A fragment of my soul lingers in those brick walls, hoping to revisit & claim someday "Someday", is a fickle word The now, though a million steps away slowly makes its way towards me I pray that the first unity is of the soul, Where the adventure can start and never end, We gasp for air & beg the gods above.

Orange I'm at the edge of the world, looking at you from afar The bridges we've crossed and the pathways we've made, I wonder if they've brought us any closer? Stumbling for words, my lips are trembling to make out the right things to say. You, the juvenile delinquent. The embodiment of youth and its dysfunction. I hope you know what you are looking for. For in the city of lights, few stars are to be found. ~Dawn